Hi Leo ,& Jannie,
Well I made it through yesterday, most of the day was spent in bed, not good. It is a good thing that I had to work today, so it forced me to get up, get dressed and get out, I was there until 7 tonight, by the time I got home, walked the dogs, tried to eat, it was 8:30, so that is good, almost bedtime. Jannie i am so sorry that you had to go through this torture twice, I can't understand why that would happen, why can't we keep our happiness?, why do we have to lose the ones we love, and especially since we had good relationships, Why???, Jannie, I feel very frustrated with no patience also,
Leo, my sons and I were with Johnny around the clock the last days of his life, I never ever saw someone die before, and my love, I remember his last breath, I just can't forget, my children, his brother, and my close cousins were all there it was as if he waited for them, my younger son went down for coffee, before we knew that he was so close, and we called him back as we saw his breathing was getting weaker, Ray came back with a priest that he found on the way back to the room, just as they came into the room Johnny took his last breath, how could we ever make that memory easier to bear, i am so sick right now, I just relived the whole thing. I don't know what we are going to do, but these last few days have been torture for me.
I will try to come back later,
God Bless
Karen