Hi Amy: I know that I am getting in on this discussion rather late, but I just wanted to say that God will let you know He is real if you genuinely ask Him to. This can happen in many ways, and not all of them are dramatic. Sometimes you just know in your heart. You don't know all the answers, but you don't have to. Look at nature, look at children laughing, consider a Creator who was sensitive enough to invent tears as a release for our deepest emotions-marvel at the beauty and intricacy of the human body and the way it all works. Reflect on the self sacrifice that is a part of genuine love, the way the rainbow appears after the rain-flowers in spring-snowflakes all uniquely different. And most of all, the desire we all have to believe in Someone greater than ourselves-in the hope that we have a purpose to this life, and that He has a plan. If I did not have this hope I would be most miserable. But the hope has become assurance for me. When I am all alone, and everyone has forsaken me, there is One who never will, one who cradles me in His arms, and even weeps with me. He believes in me, even when I doubt myself, and loves me in spite of my shortcomings. He is the Prince of Peace, and He is also "Abba"-Daddy. He is a Friend that sticks closer than a brother, faithful through all things. I love a song that says, "When you can't trace His hand...trust His heart." I also have had my faith crisis. And yet, when I had shaken my fist at Him and shouted my disappointment, I found that He loved me still. And I found myself running into His arms. How could I not? His love captures me, and I surrender. Where else would I go? I pray that you will find the peace and reassurance that you are searching for. It may not be something the mind can entirely understand. They call it faith. Keep questioning, and keep looking. He waits for you longingly and lovingly. Hugs-Lonnie