My boyfriend of nearly a year died two weeks ago due to a hemorrhagic stroke. It was determined that cocaine caused his stroke. He and I were planning to be married and he was taken from me so unexpectedly. The hardest part to all of this is that I had no idea he was using cocaine. He was obviously very good at hiding it- I guess it was easy for him since we didn't live together. I am left with not only the grief of losing him, but the anger his deceit has brought out in me. I feel like our whole relationship was based on a lie. How do I even know he really loved me? How do I know that his feelings were genuine after finding this out about him? I hope there is someone out there who has gone through this because I need advice. I will be seeing a counselor starting tomorrow, which will help, but I was only allowed to tell a few people about the cause of his death. I want to tell everyone, but his kids don't want me to. Please anyone who's willing to give me their two cents, I'd appreciate it..
Topic: Devastation (Read 3409 times)
