I feel so bad for being so negative but does this ever get any better? I miss Jim more and more every day. His passing was so unexpected and senseless that I can't wrap my head around the fact that he is gone forever. One minute, we were watching T.V, then he had a headache and was going to lie down and then next I was calling an ambulance. I didn't get to say goodbye to him. Rationally, I know that he is not here but I miss him so much and I am having more bad days than good ever since his birthday in June. I still get up, get dressed and go through the day but inside, I am a mess. I feel like the outside of me looks normal but the inside of me is in a fog, unfocused most of the time. I keep extremely busy both inside and outside but it's not enough. He is in my mind constantly. I feel like I'm going crazy. I am so lucky because I have so many people in my life that care about me but I just want Jim back.