As I'm sitting here teary eyed & about to post, I read your post. If your family & friends don't want to talk about your baby and your feelings please find a therapist and a group. I've done grief therapy and I can truly say that it helps.
Time is a friend to a grieving parent. The pain never goes away however, for me, it has softened the raw & rough edges for me, most of the time.
Sending you healing thoughts, hugs and prayers,
Adam's Mama Paula