Steve, You will be with her again, in time, but it isn't your time, yet. She wouldn't want that for you. It's been eight months since II lost my wife, Cathy and, lately, it seems I miss her more than ever. I don't know if it's the stormy weather or my upcoming surgery or what it is. My sister lost her husband three years ago and tells me the second year is even harder. I told her, I didn't need to hear that, but others have said the same thing. I think we need to try to care for ourselves the best we can. Eat and sleep and exercise and spend time with friends and family. Best wishes, Wally