Hi Terry,
I wish I could say that the week has been kinder but it really hasn't. It's been stressful trying to pull this "Celebration" together for the 18th. It was supposed to be something simple. Pizza, beer and chocolate cake - Tom's three favorite foods. It has now grown into a party of 30, pot luck, BYOB - break out the music.
And then someone told me I should have a collage poster made up of Tom. Fine. "I'll" do that on top of everything else (the cleaning, the organizing, the invitations). His sister back in Massachusetts sent me pictures that I could use - she sent them out over a week ago and I was afraid they were lost. I actually asked her to scan them and hold on to the originals but she mailed the originals and I was ready to cry over that because no one was listening to me. Well, the pictures got here and I tried putting together a photo collage poster through Walmart but when I clicked the button, the project wasn't going to be ready until AFTER the celebration - and that was with rush service and picking it up at the store. I was devastated. I just wanted to do one thing nice to honor Tom. Then a friend suggested Snapfish. With Snapfish you have the option of picking up the poster at Walgreens or Walmart so I thought I was doomed. I got the collage all put together yesterday, pushed the button and was told I could pick the poster up after 1:30 today. And, lo and behold, something went right! The poster is wonderful. And, of course, I cried.
I have cried so much this week, I am totally wiped out and back to being unable to sleep.
And on this Celebration. I had a bunch of people tell me I didn't need to lift a finger. Then I ended up being pushed into offering hamburgers (fortunately my neighbor volunteered to do that). And now, even though it's BYOB, it's being insisted that I supply the beer because "that's what Tom would do".
I was so fed up I almost canceled it. And, Terry, to be very truthful, I can hear Tom's voice in the back of my head. He wouldn't want me stressing out over this. He wouldn't want this to be a big production. Pizza, Beer and chocolate cake. Simple. He would be upset that his friends left me out to dry on the 4th of July and he would be upset that 100% of the burden of pulling this Celebration together is on my shoulders and I'm expected to play hostess, too. He would just pull the plug.
And then 3 of my 7 new rose bushes are dying and i had to run around town today looking for shock treatment.
My head is about to explode from all the emotions and the lack of sleep.
But thank you for letting me vent. And I know I'm loved on here. Between this forum and my little dog, Molly, I think I'm going to be okay. Can't wait for yoga on Monday.
Love and Hugs,
Robin