Thank you all, for reading, and leaving messages, they are helpful.
The kicker in this time of year for me personally is, on March 6th is the day Jennifer died, passing to the other side.
So, roughly two weeks apart are these monumental day's, and yes, I am mostly numb! Waking up this morning, while drinking my coffee, tears ran down my face, and I was unable to identify exactly why? Maybe I just miss her so? I sometimes have to laugh at myself, for of course...I will always miss her! It's learning how to carry on with my life without her by my side! She knew me like no other, she was my soul-mate, and I am accutely aware of that now probably more than ever before. It is not as gloomy as this may sound, yet still have moments like that, and I personally have to stay away from that darkness for it would, and has, enveloped me body & soul. I look at the love we shared, and the good times even in her illness, and remind myself, I know what forgiveness is, and unconditional love from one who knew all there was to know about me, and that is a rare thing to share with another human being.
Thank you all for being with me in spirit through all this!
((((((Hugs to All)))))
Rodney