With the 1 year anniversary of my husband's death quickly approaching, I am finding the grief hitting me harder now. When monumental dates (like the day we were told there is nothing more that can be done) come up, I find my grief burst uncontrollable. It's like last year I was on auto-pilot doing what I needed to do, and this year I have the chance to mourn those days. The past year has flown by and I feel like I missed most of it. Is anyone else finding the same thing happening to them?
I still feel 'lost' most days and don't know how to combat that. I have always been an organized person, but find that 'fog' seems to always be present. Sometimes I have the TV on but a program will end and I don't even know what happened during it. Concentrating any more is pretty difficult. I have taken part in a couple local grief groups but found the anticipation of attending them each time created an anxiety that I have never had an issue with before. So many different emotions I have never dealt with in the past.