i can put this up... Raven Wolfgang Kiss Away ... it should be the first post you see in google.
He was the only one for all of my life who didn't hurt me. Always a kind word or a beautiful smile to encourage me through the day. Being the person that I am, i challenged everyone... but he never looked at it as me being bad. He would talk to me about everything. When I was up to problem behavior he would take so much time to let me know that I didn't have to behave badly for him to notice me. Didn't stop the behavior but it showed me unconditional love.
As the black sheep of the family, I found comfort and healing in his eyes. He was my morning star.
As the month of March in '88 approached us, we found he had been having issues with his sight. Headaches that no pain pill would improve his situation. On my bday, I sat them all down and told them that dad couldn't get sick.. i was pregnant. For the next ten years he was strong and kicked the big C's butt.
I felt that I had given him a reason, other than us... to live.
Ten years later... cancer had struck him again. We would lose him to it this time. I would lose my baby the same day he was to be cremated. I never saw his wake/funeral. Always felt that I didn't serve him right at the end because of having to be admitted into hospital that day for the loss of my baby Taylor.
Lots of feelings, i'm overwhelmed. thanks for reading.