I am sorry Lisa for putting that on you. I was emotional & I knew when I wrote it it didn't feel right. When I didn't get a response, again I knew I had spoken incorrectly. You did not make me do anything. I felt pain and anger and disappointment and probably a few other things with myself and Riki.
Sometimes I am not good at putting things into correct format when I am emotional, I tend to revert back to talking in the ways I did growing up which are not positive or helpful to me. I have had to work hard all my life to change how I think and all that. I have improved more then you know and, as I said earlier, when I get emotional I say what's in my heart and I never ever want to or mean to hurt anyone. Speaking from my heart is different from speaking from my head. I almost never speak emotionally out of anger. If I do feel angry with you about anything you will know because one of the things that I have learned is to speak up and say I am angry and explain what I am angry about.
I do like the poem and I cry every time read it. As I tried to explain, even when I wrote that first comment, my reaction to the poem was all about me and I did learn some things to help me. I hope things are well with you and thank you for sharing that, I do need it even if I don't always like it.
That goes the same to everyone who shares. I always read stuff and I don't always respond. I appreciate every bit of sharing I just can't always respond. I can be pretty insecure especially when something like this comes up and I find that I back off from sharing for fear of offending someone.
Love to all of you,
Shelby
Shelby,
To be honest with you , you made me feel uncomfortable by saying Thanks a lot you made me cry !!
I didn't know how to take it . You seemed angry at me. I just wanted to leave it alone. I am not a person that don't speak my mind but I don't like arguing so I left it be.
Always,
Lisa