Dear Shelby!
If there is some growth I will get from my experience,it must be a knowledge of the true love,the only one for my whole life.Sometimes I think that God sent me my beloved Jan for getting know the true love between us that may change my whole life and then he had to go back to where he is waiting for me to come.He has already finished his journey and now I have to finish mine.Once Iīm done,Iīll see him again to be in his arms forever.
I donīt know why he had to die.He wanted to live all his life with me,so I probably never stop asking why such a good,healthy and strong man must die in his best years while someone bad,ill or old can go on living for 90 years.Then I speak to myself that he was such a good,peaceful and kind person as the heaven has been waiting for him to come.
As I said before,I have so many answers,but still donīt know "why".Anyhow theyīre bringing me some comfort into my life,because Iīm sure he is in the heaven.
I just know I canīt live without him,therefore I canīt wait to be with him again.
He is everything I have,I love,I believe in...always,forever,till eternity...
Janka