Thanks Terry
You are a rock to always be checking and sharing with people. My kids are good. They enjoy being with me and my younger 2 want to come live with me. It will be a fight though because their dad does not want to change the custody agreement, I think more because of the money then anything. All I know is that to have them back living with me means I will have a fight ahead of me, unless something changes.
I am doing my best to find some faith somewhere and I have had a difficult time doing that. I lost my hope and faith in humans. As much as I have had support and know there are caring people out there I have been overwhelmed with pain and lost my hope. I am getting help and I have been asking for and getting help for years and nothing ever changed deep inside me so I am at the low end of tolerance and strength. I have finally come to a point in my life where I have learned how to trust, without question, my gut and so can now do what I need for myself without necessarily having an answer or a specific description of what is wrong. I am learning that I can just accept it and change what is unhealthy in my life.
I hope you are doing well and that Christmas will not be too painful for you and for everyone on here. Love to all of you and lots of peace.
Shelby