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Re: The loss of my beloved man.
« Reply #45 on: February 11, 2015, 06:42:57 PM »
Dear Shelby!

Every song I posted on here does have a special meaning for me.What do you like?Write me which kind of music you´d like to hear.

I used to have a pain in my back and now it´s all right,but what is any physical pain compared to my heartache?

I´m doing well being on here with you and others who know what I´ve been going through day and night...

As for those nightmares I also wrote about here,I have the same problem as you and it has been every night about 3 years,sometimes better and sometimes worse,well this is what makes me worry,too.I try to be positive but it must be somewhere deep in my subconsciousness,because I haven´t got any influence to reduce this state of being.There is only hope it´s gonna be better some day.

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​I always kiss you from the heart,my endless love,
you know how much I love you,also stars above,
you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #46 on: February 12, 2015, 02:34:18 AM »
Hi Janka

My taste in music is wide. I love strauss, to soft rock, hard rock, country. 70's, 80's music the most. Some of the new stuff is good. I like lady antebellum, Adele, 3 doors down (here without you, when I'm gone), Rascal flats (What hurts the most), The carpenters from the 70's, ABBA...

My body needed rest and that's all I did for awhile. I have been meditating to calm myself and feel safe. I don't feel to safe to go out though. I think my body doesn't like that either. It's been swelling and my fingers have been tingly in my left hand.I need to get more exercise and I don't want to be in the city. I want solitude, to walk in the trees and listen to the animals and not care about life here. The mediation really seems to help. Have you ever done that?

I gotta get some sleep.

Love and hugs, Shelby


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« Reply #47 on: February 16, 2015, 03:46:46 PM »
You´re the most beautiful being for me,
only you I want still and forever to see,
you´re the ornament of heaven,my dear,
your blue eyes can light up the stars near.

For my beloved Jan,
with love,
Janka


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you know how much I love you,also stars above,
you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #48 on: March 05, 2015, 12:12:58 AM »
Heaven can´t add up many of my tears blue,
heart can´t stop crying how much I love you,
come back and hold me,I need you to breathe,
without you can´t go on and fall on my knees.


For my beloved Jan,
with love,
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I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #49 on: March 05, 2015, 09:13:26 AM »
Beautiful.
I can be changed by what happens to me but I refuse to be reduced by it - Maya Angelou.

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« Reply #50 on: March 08, 2015, 04:38:19 PM »
I miss you so much,even more each day,
though it´s getting harder,I always pray,
I was crying coming home sad once again,
nobody knows that I suffer so much then.


Love you&miss you&need you...I do...my beloved Jan!

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« Reply #51 on: March 16, 2015, 05:42:18 PM »
Every tear dropped calling your name,
there´s all of my love,it´s still the same,
I love you from the bottom of my heart,
even much more,you´re my loving part.


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This is just for you,my beloved Jan...


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I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #52 on: March 17, 2015, 11:42:29 PM »
I truly hope to be with you soon,my sun,
I live my life the best I can,my beloved Jan,
you´re the reason I wake up day after day,
when we two meet again,will be always May.


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I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #53 on: March 27, 2015, 04:24:27 PM »
You light up a mourning journey of my lonely life,
I want to be always and forever your loving wife,
you´ll change the tears onto the roses,beloved Jan,
since I met you,you are my dearest and only one.

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This is for you forever...

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I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #54 on: April 02, 2015, 07:00:51 PM »
​My dearest and only one,today is so peaceful night,
we´ve got a patron of two us within reach and sight,
I feel so saved,he has been helpful these hard times,
a bridge upward to you after had torn down our lives.

For my beloved Jan,
from the bottom of my heart,
forever.

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you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #55 on: April 22, 2015, 05:33:41 PM »
I could say a plenty of magic words
but still feeling how much all hurts,
so deepest in my heart as I always cry
can´t stop grieving until I one day die.

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You are all I want...all I need...all I love forever,my beloved Jan!!!

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I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #56 on: April 29, 2015, 01:47:22 PM »
I keep on writing,let my heart to be open,
speak up and turn to you my beloved man,
you know I would wait for you all my life,
in heaven we´ll go on as husband and wife.


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For my beloved Jan...
from the bottom of my heart...
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you know how much I love you,also stars above,
you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #57 on: May 09, 2015, 04:29:41 PM »
​Nothing in the world ever stays the same,
when I always miss him calling my name,
with pain serried and throbbing inside,
just pour it out of me right now I might.


For my dearest Jan
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you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #58 on: May 29, 2015, 02:20:17 PM »
My love gets stronger,no matter you´re far,
by day you´re my sun,by night a shining star,
I dream of you day and night,having a plan,
expecting a future with you,my beloved Jan.


This is for you,
with all my love,
forever yours,
Janka


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​I always kiss you from the heart,my endless love,
you know how much I love you,also stars above,
you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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« Reply #59 on: June 10, 2015, 03:32:43 PM »
My heart is bleeding by now for you,
that´s why I´m feeling tonight so blue,
if I could turn back the last day with you,
I´d love to go into heaven too,that´s true.


For my dearest Jan,
with all my love,
forever Janka


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you will always be my dearest and only one,
I can not wait to be with you,my beloved Jan.

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