Dear Shelby!
Iīve made up my mind to do not cry as much as I had done before for two of reasons I found to be very strong.The first was because I didnīt want to make my beloved Jan sad,seeing me suffer too much and then I stopped crying as long as possible.The second was because crying so much made me feel worse than before,having such strong headache as I couldnīt do anything,not even fall asleep.Lately at Christmas meeting a very kind priest brought into my life such a great change to ease my pain,so I try to do not cry as much as before.Thereīs no word to describe what happened in my life,thatīs why I feel that God is my biggest help.I canīt say that I suffer less,Iīve only found a way for going through.The priest and my best friends have been helping me as much as possible.Everything has changed,but my love for my beloved Jan is the same,even stronger day after day.Well,thatīs the way it is.
Love and hugs from Janka