Hello everyone this is an update on my situation. People are telling me that I am looking much better but when I look at photographs I see that I am not smiling. I am making progress. I have returned to church and to participating in a few of their activities. I am not participating much in community activities, yet.
I am flying yo Alaska, in a few weeks I tend to sit around the house and vegetate, which I know is not good for me. There have been many maintenance problems with the house and farm. I have been blessed with good friends great construction people, willing to assist me. Making decisions with out Robert, is hard but necessary. I miss his companionship and always will. I am making progress though. I can now look at picture if him and not cry. I can stand going to the cemetery and no longer cry. I have lost a few friends but have gained some supportive ones too.
I want all to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I am beginning to see it! I am not there yet but I now have hope! When I was on here daily, I did not feel like I would ever see it. It is possible to developed a new normal but we will never have the old normal. It is up to us, wether we develop a good or a bad new normal.