Hi Gail,
I can definitely relate to how you are feeling. I lost my mom nearly 3 years ago. At first, I was fine because I knew she was in a better place and no longer in pain or struggling. After awhile, the grief and pain from her being gone finally set in. It hurt a lot. I cried every day. Thanksgiving and Christmas still sucks because she passed the day before Thanksgiving and Christmas was our favorite holiday. I love and miss her a lot, but I know she's watching over me.
Just remember that she is always right there beside you and will never leave you. She will always be your guardian angel and watch over you. Ask God for peace, comfort and strength. He will get you through.
Hugs,
Adam