I am so numb. Everything is a blur. I can't breath. I have no idea how to deal with this. My heart has never hurt like this before. I know I am suppose to be putting one foot in front of the other even if it is just baby steps but I can't move. I am just frozen with pain and numbness. I just can't believe that my mother is gone. There is such a huge hole in my heart. I don't even want to get out of bed in the mornings. It takes every ounce of strength that I have to force myself to get out of bed every morning. I just don't know how to go on. It just hurts SOOOOOOOOOOOO much.