Thank you so much, everyone. I can turn here when I feel alone, and feel like the "weirdo" in the room. Maddy's birthday was a nice dinner, and we were able to be joyous/sad as only families in our situation can. Since that birthday, I have taken both my daughters to their college eight hours away and moved them into their apartment, only to come home to a house with just pets, no humans. Thank goodness for my work, I thought (I'm a teacher), but when we started back today, I felt more alone than ever. Maybe I was just dreading coming home to an empty house. I know this too will become my new normal, but it's a tough road. I appreciate all of your kindness and hugs.
Diane