Hi-a-friend - I'm sorry things have unraveled for you and that you've been struggling. I'm concerned about those headaches and would like to know if you're seeing a good neurologist. Head injuries can cause problems for years if not attended to in a timely fashion. I've been there and also have had family members going through the same after accidents. If you're not getting results with one doctor, there are many more out there. Please keep me updated.
I wish I had some wise words of advice that would ease all your pain, both emotionally and physically. But, all I have is an ear and a shoulder and I'm here to listen and I'm always good for a hug or two.
This is another loss for you, Arthur and as hard as it may seem to be at this time, know that there's a lining around this cloud, too. You deserve happiness. Maybe it wasn't meant to be? I don't know. Your the only one who truly does. I'm really sorry that this was not the relationship you hoped for. And, sorry for your pain.
I know about being in that dark place. I also understand how dim that light can seem at times, but it's there. Trust me, it's still there. The veil of problems and the pain/heartache clouds it's brightness for a time. Please know that you are not alone and you are loved and cared for.
Please let me know how you're feeling, with those headaches.
Sending hugs and my love to you, Arthur,
Terry