(((Jason)))
Thanks for sharing. I signed on today in order to make a post very similar to yours. (See separate post called "There IS Hope for a Brighter Tomorrow"). Yes, you have grown and been forever changed, and still are connected to Jen, and forever will be. As you said, these changes don't come easy, or quick. But you got there, and you will continue to grow and heal.
I wish you many blessings, peace, and happiness.