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jasonkl

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New Year
« on: December 29, 2012, 03:14:53 PM »
Hi all it been more than a month sense my last post. The season has been very busy. For the first time in almost 5 years I am making plans for the future. When Jen first got hurt we though a few months she would be ok, once it was clear that she would never be the same again everything changed. I stop planing for the future and started just trying to make it through the week. After she passed as you all know it goes to just trying to make through to the next second.  It been a very hard road and I still have my days. I suspect that I will have moments for the rest of my days when something just makes me miss her.

My kids are ok. My oldest Jason is still not ready for where I am at with my grief. He still does not like the way I handled things it going to take years to repair that relationship. God willing I will have the time to do it.

My new relationship is going well. Dare I say I am in love again. Liz makes me happy. Something I never though I could or would find again.  We are making plans for a future together. Still taking things slow but going good. I will try to post more soon.

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Re: New Year
« Reply #1 on: December 29, 2012, 04:13:15 PM »
Congrats Jason and good luck!

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Re: New Year
« Reply #2 on: December 29, 2012, 04:51:37 PM »
How wonderful for you Jason...Congratulations! You give me and others hope.

(((((((((((((Jason)))))))))))))))

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Re: New Year
« Reply #3 on: December 30, 2012, 12:05:43 PM »
Thank you John and Jean.

I try to read posts as often as I can but responding does not feel right at times. I am in a diffent place than I was a year ago. I forgot what it was like to be happy. I loved my wife but I realize now it had been years since we had been happy. The picture at the bottom of my posts was the last time we were happy, that was 2009. That also happens to be the last time we went out.  Her issues had taken a toll on our relationship. To be happy again does come at a price. My family does not really support my actions. Buying presents for another woman didn't exactly feel right either. I still bought one for Jen and gave it to her. Also do feel guilty for moving forward with my life. I have a feeling that these feeling may never truly go away either.  But in all I would not want to go back to where I was a year ago. Even with all the complications and strange feelings. This so much better than it was. I hope and pray that all of you can find some from of happiness again.

Always Jason

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Re: New Year
« Reply #4 on: December 30, 2012, 01:29:00 PM »
That's good to hear, Jason. It might not be perfect, but better than it was is good.

I'm happy for you!

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Re: New Year
« Reply #5 on: December 30, 2012, 06:48:32 PM »

My kids are ok. My oldest Jason is still not ready for where I am at with my grief. He still does not like the way I handled things it going to take years to repair that relationship. God willing I will have the time to do it.


You will have the time, Jason. Being consistent with assuring him how much you love him is the best thing to do. And, also....listen to him. I know he has a lot of feelings. You may not like what he says, but it is HIS grief and HIS feelings and he owns it. Allow him to express himself.


My new relationship is going well. Dare I say I am in love again. Liz makes me happy. Something I never though I could or would find again.  We are making plans for a future together. Still taking things slow but going good. I will try to post more soon.


I am SO happy for you and Liz!! Thanks so much for sharing this wonderful news with us!

((((((Jason))))))

Love,
Terry

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Re: New Year
« Reply #6 on: January 02, 2013, 09:43:38 AM »
(((Jason))))

Thanks for the update. 
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Re: New Year
« Reply #7 on: January 02, 2013, 07:13:34 PM »
Jason,

Thanks for the update...you give me hope! :love4:

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Re: New Year
« Reply #8 on: January 03, 2013, 01:20:24 AM »
Dare I say I am in love again. Liz makes me happy.

Wow. To love again. To be happy again. Wow. Embrace that.
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Re: New Year
« Reply #9 on: January 13, 2013, 08:15:47 AM »
Good Luck and hope it all works out well for you John WoW  :love4:

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Re: New Year
« Reply #10 on: January 26, 2013, 09:03:07 AM »
((((((((((Jason)))))))))))))

Thats fantastic news. I am so happy that you are in love again and making plans for the future. You give me hope

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