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Tinabeth

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Ramblings of an aching heart
« on: December 14, 2012, 12:32:31 AM »
It will be 22 months next week since my Jay died. I am finding this Christmas to be more difficult than last. I believe I was still numb and running on automatic last Christmas. Finding it very difficult to get into any kind of holiday spirit despite having 4 young grandsons (all under 4) to celebrate with.  I just look at them and my heart aches that he isn't here to enjoy them with me. Am finding that I'm back to having minor things really upset me again. Found his Nikeplus on the desk tonite. He had it on when he died. I suddenly recalled removing it from his arm at the funeral home where his body was taken. Remembering how he looked so peaceful laying there and how only 8 hours before he had gotten ready, kissed me goodbye and left for work.  Oh Lord, I just don't know sometimes why my mind works the way it does.
Thanks for listening to me. Tina
Jay "Jaybo" Buford 1.28.1963 - 2.17.2011
My love - my best friend - my life - for 29 years.

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Re: Ramblings of an aching heart
« Reply #1 on: December 14, 2012, 03:34:24 AM »
(((((((((((((((( TINA ))))))))))))))))))


The mind is so powerful.  I sometimes bring myself to that first day.  If you need to take baby steps take them. This is such a hard journey.  

Sending you peace , love and hugs.


Always,

Lisa
« Last Edit: December 14, 2012, 03:40:31 AM by MyLou »
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Re: Ramblings of an aching heart
« Reply #2 on: December 17, 2012, 10:30:47 AM »
((((Tina))))

'nuff said,
John

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Re: Ramblings of an aching heart
« Reply #3 on: December 17, 2012, 12:44:18 PM »
((((Tina)))))
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