The new job didn’t work out, so I’m back to the old routine, away from home a lot. Don’t care much, at least it makes the time pass quicker. I never took the photography class I signed up for, my work schedule kept me away too much. The only thing that gives me anything like enjoyment is being outdoors, exploring, walking, hiking, running. I try to do that every chance I get, although last week I was sick and didn’t get out too much. Haven’t been sick like that in many years.
Judy’s mother died last week, so we had a quiet Thanksgiving at her house with Judy’s sisters and their families. The last 3 years have been so hard on everyone. Three years ago Judy’s dad got sick and died, then Judy almost 2 years ago, and now her mother. Judy always tried to help her sisters care for their father and mother, but she was never able to help much due to her own illness. It’s been exhausting for everyone. Now maybe her sisters can get a little rest, but it’s not much comfort to them. They’ve lost both their parents and their baby sister in the last three years.
I don’t like being so downcast, but that’s the way it is. Maybe it’s the season and the approaching anniversary. There just isn’t much joy in my life, and no prospect for any in the future that I can see. But what can you say, I just keep plodding along.