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MyLou

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Our last weekend
« on: November 18, 2012, 06:19:07 PM »
Well, almost 2 years ago this weekend before Thanksgiving was our last.  

Never had thought this could happen. Even though I was sick that weekend it was a great weekend. Lou had made me homemade soup and took care of me. I had taken a nap and to wake up Lou staring at me.  He always said he loved to watch me sleep.  I know he still watches me. Oh how I miss My Lou/Soulmate.

It's been a pretty hard weekend it sucks. I found a dime under my bed I know Lou is with me every second.  I can't every imagine not talking or telling him I love you everyday.

This grief has taken me to my lowest.  It physically and mentally drains me.  I always had considered myself pretty strong until this.  I guess I am still strong because I get back up, and fall again. It's an ongoing process grief and this new journey. I know I have Lou on my side saying I can do this. I tell him I can't but then I stand again.  

I will be grieving and healing for the rest of my life.  I have the man that I love on my side and my family here at Webhealing.

I can't believe it will be 2 years Thanksgiving day.  I will be going to the cemetery. I will try to sit at the dinner table it's a chore for me. This will be my 3rd Thanksgiving without Lou.  I know he will be with me in spirit but truly it's not the same as we all know.

After the 22nd I will be going in my 3rd year.  I just can't believe this.  After I get through the holidays and my operation I want change.  They say don't do it in the 1st year.  Well, now the 3rd I want and need change.  I don't know what that will be but I will figure it out as I go.  

I need to hold on to hope, faith everyday.  

I know grieve will sneak up on me at any given time especially with the holidays here. I will be grieving / healing everyday. I am hoping for better days , weeks , years to come.  I just take it at sec, min, hours at a time still.

I wrote this to Lou last month in my journal.

Lou how do I live again
Can you help me
You always did
Show me my way back
Back to life
I will always love/miss you
I will see you again
I then will be truly happy
Until then show me how to live

Always,

Lisa

 
« Last Edit: November 19, 2012, 03:31:23 AM by MyLou »
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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #1 on: November 18, 2012, 08:17:39 PM »
Hugs sweetie!

((((((((((Lisa))))))))))))))

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #2 on: November 19, 2012, 01:34:25 AM »

((((((((((Lisa))))))))))

~Rodney~

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #3 on: November 19, 2012, 11:32:30 AM »

((((((((((Lisa))))))))))  :love9:

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #4 on: November 20, 2012, 02:56:33 PM »
((((((((((Lisa))))))))
I hope you find some peace and comfort in the coming days, weeks and months.

I too almost feel stuck, like I take one step forward and then 2 steps back. The Holidays are so very hard. I think for me last year I was just numb and this year I am almost feeling the same, I try to take one day at a time, honestly I feel so alone,

Hopig for some comfort for you and I am sure your sweet Lou is always with you. :engel2:
Holding you close as you near Lou's Angel Date.

Rose

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #5 on: November 20, 2012, 05:00:05 PM »
Thank you for the hugs I really need them ....

Of course sending hugs back (((((((((( EVERYONE )))))))))))

Rose , I know what you mean about feeling so alone  :tearyeyed:


Wishing peace and comfort to all of you


Always,

Lisa
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I miss you every second of everyday My Love

I know I will see you again

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #6 on: November 21, 2012, 06:35:08 AM »
Hugs to you Lisa.

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #7 on: November 21, 2012, 08:06:15 AM »
(((((((((( LISA ))))))))))))

Thinking of you today tomorrow always

HUGEST HUGS
Love
Angie
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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #8 on: November 22, 2012, 02:35:29 PM »
((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))  :angel11:

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #9 on: November 22, 2012, 07:48:28 PM »
((((((((((Lisa))))))))))))))

Oh lovely this is so very hard. Know that I am thinking of you.

Son xxx
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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #10 on: November 23, 2012, 03:01:58 AM »
(((((((((((((((((( CHRIS , ANGIE , JOHN , SONYA ))))))))))))))))))


Thank you my sweet family  :angel11:


Always,

Lisa
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I miss you every second of everyday My Love

I know I will see you again

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Re: Our last weekend
« Reply #11 on: November 26, 2012, 03:48:07 PM »
((((Lisa))))  :engel2:
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