Hi Rose....so nice to see a post from you! Regardless of how much time has gone by, the holidays are always difficult. Those grief bursts from their memory, every memory of holidays spent together, can be rough.
Time does help. That time is very different for us all. Remember that our pain is fueled by our love for them. No love...no pain. But, I'd rather feel the pain than feel on top of the world just months, even a year or two after they have died because that would be more painful if I had nothing to miss. That pain would be unbearable. So, I can live with this pain.
You'll always miss Bill just as I will always miss all of my loved ones who have died. How could we not? But, one day you'll feel that life is calling to you (with a smile) instead of beating you up and that will be a good feeling. Better days will come, Rose. Believe me!
Wishing you peace, also and much happiness in your future! You certainly deserve it!
(((((((Rosie)))))))
Love,
Terry