I wanted to say thanks to everyone for their kind words. I read them before but I guess I'm still getting use to encouragement and positive insight from people during this worst time in my life. It takes some getting use to since the friends I have around are doing the "If we don't bring it up, and allow him to talk about it, It never happened and it won't get awkward" approach, or telling me that, "Your young, 23, you'll find someone just like Liz or better and get married and have kids." I've heard statements like that ever since I was in high-school and those people in high-school were right I did find it, WITH LIZ. But at this point I don't want "someone else", Liz was one in 10 Million, The first woman I said, "I Love You" Too, I don't want "someone else", I just want Liz back, no matter how impossible it is. I can't stop myself from wanting her back.
The reason why I haven't posted on here in a while is because nothing has really changed for me. Its going on 3 months since My Liz pasted and my grief has just been getting worst. Sometimes I'm crying 5, or up to 8, times in one day. It's gotten so bad to the point that my therapist and doctor have advised antidepressants, which is what I'm on now. I thought I was strong even to deal with this on my own will but no one prepares you for such a huge lost in your life. I guess another reason I haven't posted in here in a while is because most, Not all, people on this forum seems to be finding some form of happy and positive feelings and I didn't want to rain on that with my grief and somewhat negativity.