Oh Arthur...it's no wonder you can't sleep. Every death, regardless of how close we were to them brings memories of our own loss right to the surface. I understand how those nights can seem endless. I'm so sorry.
And, what tragic deaths they were. The fact that Maureen was so close to them is what has touched your heart and brought about more pain to it.
It hurts and deeply when we think of how our loved ones suffered so and that never goes away, rather becomes bearable over time. I deal with that, too Arthur so I understand.
Know we are always here for you, with love,
((((((((Arthur))))))))
Love,
Terry