hello everyone:)
Just wanted to pop in and say "hello to all"
I've been doing well, life has gotten very clear to me as I had said before. Such a strong reality for me sometimes to accept, but I work on it by affirmations. And reminders what is good in the world, like my undying love for my husband and children and family. And life is worth all the hapiness, but at some point in life, it needs to be balanced out with sadness.
I would have to say accepting is my hardest grief stage right now. But I work on it daily, and the Good Lord gives me grace and strenght and days.
I have a fear of losing more somedays, like I'm not ready right now to handle much more. If anyone else has felt that way, I'd love to hear you.
Also, I am jealous now of others who have their moms still and their lives are still bubble perfect. Well to me it looks that way, I do remind myself that we alll have our struggles, but that's what crosses my mind often when I see my happy friends. Sucks, but I just sigh and tell myself its okay, I lie and say" well, I've been thru it and it took me very deep in sorrow, and when their parents pass, I can be their for them" that's my consolation. Soooo many thoughts in this mind of mine. It will slow down right? Well I hope and pray it does.
Thanks so much for listening, I haven't posted in ahwile and its good to know I can whenever I want and feel the need. Even if its months apart. Thanks webhealing for listening, I feel much better when I write here what I don't want to explain to someone who may not know what I'm talking about or feeling.
Melody