I saw my financial guy this week...it was just supposed to be a routine check on Maureen's estate, a chore since it took alot of arrangements for me to get to appointment. I started having trouble in the middle of the meeting...just seeing my financial guy started brininging back memories of the times right after her death, and worse , the realization that this money was the result of endless sacrifice by her parents and grandparents for her lifelong disability. I watched them all die..first her father while we were dating, then her mother, and then her. The appointment brought back alot of grief and I struggled at work to control the tears.I wish to God that she was still here. I am so sick of coming home to an empty house devoid of light and happiness.