(((((((Lisa ))))))))
You did not fail. In the beggining of our grief non of us are ever prepared for what lies head. After the shock where's off and real pain begins we begin to understand that what we knew is gone and been replace by an ach that only one who has experanced it can understand. The emptiness that no one talks about. All the hopes and dreams that are losed with that person. No one talks about this before it happens,and after it does no one wants to deal with the aftermath. Our lives have been forever changed. Our paths to the future have been altered. There is no way to fail at this. You promised Lou you would live again after a year. And you have for filled that promise. We have meet several times. You have traveled to meet others. You built new strong friendships. You are living even if you don't feel alive. For me the only way I could see you failed if you hid under your covers and never left the house. I read something once that I think fits this. A woman who lost her husban said she still did what she had to but said she did not want to. She asked this question when will I want to live again. I think that sounds like where your at. I don't know the answer to that question. But I am hoping that you will be able to tell me someday soon.
Lots of love and respect
Jason