Jason, For Valentines Day I visited Denise's grave and brought a heart-shaped brooch and necklace I had made myself from supplies from Michael's. I hung the necklace around the flower stand. I cried alone in the rain.
I bring her roses every Saturday.
This past week I had my first dream (in 7 months) with Denise in it. In the dream I answered my cellphone and Denise said, "Hello, honey, it's me." I knew the second she started talking it was her. I quickly said, "Honey, where are you?" She responded, "You know where I am." At that point the phone went dead. I was yelling, "Hello!" over and over. Then I woke up. When I got out of bed in the morning, I found my cellphone in the bed with me.
I believe she is in heaven.