Hi Spring! I am sorry for the loss of your husbandand the difficult time you guys had with his physical and mental challenges. I know how hard it must've been in those last days to watch your husband's physical and mental health decline, and be powerless to stop it despite all of your caregiving. I was in the same situation with my wife, who had SMA and was confined to a wheelchair. Like your husband, her health declined in her last days, and like your husband, she died from an unexpected cause unrelated to her illness-she died of a heart attack. I too was my spouses sole caregiver for a very long time. I watched as my wife's progressing disability slowly and inexorably took leeched away our dreams and hopes of happiness together. Every day I cry for my wife and the lost dreams we were never able to realize. I just wanted to you to know that you are understood here on this forum and that you are not alone in your grief. -arthur