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Rebecca

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Jason
« on: January 23, 2012, 01:01:48 AM »
It's been a very long time since I have been on here.  Feb. 13th will be 6 years that we found our 31 (then) son Jason.  In the beginning, I was on here morning, noon and night. I never thought a day would go by without writing.  Well as most say, time marches on.  Our daughter had a daugher.  She was just a year old.  I never thought my broken life could begin to heal.  but the truth of the matter is I don't think I have really accepte that Jason died.  I look at his picture and expect him to walk through the door even though I know he won't.  For some reason this helps me survive.  We have never forgotten him.  His name comes up all the time in conversations...  My heart goes out to all of you "newbies".  If I can help, let me know.  I know I am selfish but I need u now.  How many of my old buddies still write on here.  If you do, please write to me.
Rebecca Jason's Mom

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Re: Jason
« Reply #1 on: January 23, 2012, 01:54:05 PM »

Hi Rebecca,

Paula and Craig went on vacation and they should be back tonight or tomorrow. Here is the link where she shared a little about that and the kids.

http://webhealing.com/forums/index.php/topic,7488.0.html

My Dad died the 18th of December after a long and sorrowful battle with Alzheimer's. The house is so empty and I'm so lonely for him. Starting another journey.

I know your Grandchild is precious and has brought a renewed joy to your life. Thanks for sharing.

Love,
Terry

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Re: Jason
« Reply #2 on: January 24, 2012, 07:01:02 PM »
Strange that you have picked this time to check in here.  I remember you.  I, too, am back after a long time away.  The approaching 5th anniversary of my son Tom's suicide seems to be more difficult this year than the last couple of years.  I lost my other son, Jim, at the age of 21, car accident, 1999, 8 years before I lost my Tom. I'm in a good place, overall - grateful for my two daughters, one of whom gave us our first grandchild, and yes, new life, another chair at the table, helps.  Does not replace, but helps.  She's having another in May, and they live .8 mile from our house, so it's all good.  I sometimes allow myself to  reflect on how awesome my life would be if both my sons were physically present in their nephew's life, but, of course, that's not the way it is. Funny, though - I've felt my Tom's presence quite strongly in the past couple of weeks. I never thought I woud be able to survive the first loss.  And then Tom? But life is for the living, and there are surprises, good ones, just around the corner, if only we can survive that far, that long, for them to unfold.
Barb, mom of 4

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Re: Jason
« Reply #3 on: January 26, 2012, 04:42:37 PM »
Rebecca:  I still check in now and then. I probably always will. sending hugs  LaVonne

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Re: Jason
« Reply #4 on: January 27, 2012, 03:45:41 PM »
Hello dear friend Rebecca,
I echo your sentiments about expecting our sons to walk through the door. You probably do like I do, look for people that have their gait, look, hair cut ....& my heart skips a beat thinking oh it's him.....
I'm so happy that you have a 1 year old to love and mushy up with. I hope that helps you. I am looking forward to the day that we are blessed with grandchildren. I hope that one of my children will name their child after Adam.
If you ever want to talk, just let me know.
XO Paula
XO Love to all my sisters & brothers-in-grief XO
Wishing you all peaceful moments, signs from your Angels & many blessings