((((((Buendia))))))
I'm so sorry for your pain. For the absence of loving parents to guide you through this journey of life. I have a couple of friends who were adopted and one very dear friend who, after many years searched for her biological Mother, although her adoptive parents were alive and they were very good people, gave her a wonderful upbringing. She found her biological Mother and to this day, has a relationship with her. It wasn't easy at first, but after a couple of years they are now inseparable. Just a thought you might want to entertain.
Welcome to webhealing. I'm glad you feel comfortable sharing here. There are a lot of understanding people here and are always willing to listen and share their thoughts with you and also, their hearts.
Please tell us more about your Mom and Dad when you are able. It's in the telling of our story and over and over that lightens our heavy burden and the pain when shared, lifts long enough to allow us to see some light.
You have my love & support,
Terry