((((((((((((((((((((Angie))))))))))))))))))))
Hold on my friend, please don't apologize for your feelings. This is one of the few places you can say how you feel and everyone gets it. We are listen , to confort and help each other as much as we can.
At 3 months I was all over the place. One day I could deal the next I was a mess, sometimes it would change by the hour. To be honest I still have days like that as you know.
A wise preson told me when I get like this and It won't pass to do something for me. I know you don't feel like it but it does help. Take a long hot bath, a nice walk out side. Maybe do something with the kids.
I have to agree with Lisa i to think they would still be here if they could. He is still with you look in your heart and you will find him there.
Sending love and hugs
Jason