I have been thinking the same thing very quite. Noone is posting. I had my little issue a few days ago and got responses, but other than that it has been too quite. I'm guess everyone is in the same place I'm. I'm kinda numb, trying every hard to not think about what is around the corner, or how I'm going to deal with it. I was thinking if I don't talk about it maybe it won't come or maybe the day will come and go without me realizing it. I know in my heart that is not going to happen and as the day gets closer the stress level is going up. This waas her holiday. She loved to decorate, I have boxes and boxes full of decorations that I can't bring my self to look at. Just thinking about it the tears have started. I miss her so much.
I so don't want to do this any more. I don't want to hurt,I don't want to cry, I just want to go back to the way it was. I know I can't have her back. I don't want her back, she was in so much pain all the time. I just want to stop hurting, I want this emptyness I feel to go away. I just want to really feel ok, not just say that I'm.
Thank you all for listening
Jason