Today is 2 years since my husband passed away, which also means that his birthday is only 6 days away. Last year I had taken the day off work because I didn't think I could focus. I decided to work this year. Not sure if it was the best thing to do, but at least it is keeping me busy. I am a lot angrier this year than last year. I am struggling with the whole finding the good in the situation or there is always a reason for these things ("everything happens for a reason"). All I see is that his passing left three kids without a father, I lost my best friend and the only person I have EVER really trusted. I am always stressed out, my kids go through waves of grief. I have been left to do everything alone. My youngest will not have any memories of his dad. There is no good reason for im being taken away from us. I put a memoriam in the paper for today, this is what it says:
To my sweet angel...
I sit here alone
Watching people passing by
Everyone living their lives
As you fly in the sky.
I'm torn up inside
I miss you so much
Can't stand life without you
Just want one more touch.
The kids are okay
They miss you lots too
Hope you are watching
Because we all love you!
It's been two years since you were
taken away from us.
Know that you are forever in our
hearts, always remembered.
We love you!
All I keep thinking is that life really sucks without him here. I miss him terribly.