arthur
Thats has always been me, my mom tell that every girlfriend or friend a brought home was always in some way emotionally damaged. She thought I use to seek these people out. I don't think she has ever realized that, I was emotionally damaged. Her and my father had an on again off again marage form when I was 6 until I was 11 then they finally called it quits. In that time frame they had 2 other childern. Every time they had another kid he would stay for a year or so then leave agian. My my youngest bother was severlly handcapped ( my he rest in peace, he passed away 12 years ago, complactions from his brain damage). My mom has never recoved from his death, she will not seek any help.
My wife always said I was the most selfless person she ever ment. Never getting anything for my self, she said I was preson you could can at 3 in the morning for a ride or just to talk and I would be there. I never bought anything for myself all my clolts her and my son bought for me. When we were first engaged my mom oftered her $100,000 not to marry me(my mom never liked her, to this day she still doesn't). My wife refused, my mom asked why she wanted to marry me after all the hell I had put her though. Between the brake ups, the drugs, the suicide attemp, the 2 childern with another women. She told my mom that even with all that that when we were together I treated her like she was the most important preson in the world and she believed there was a good preson under all that self distrective behavior.
The part I sturggle with the most through this greif is taking care of myself, never was every good at it and she was always ther to remind me that you can only give so much of yourself away that have to keep some for you. This is going to be my biggest hurttle.
thank for listen and take care all hope you all have a good day to day we all deserve one
jason