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theFireballKid

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2 years...2 very long years
« on: September 06, 2011, 09:52:12 PM »
it's been awhile since ive been here. about a week ago marked the 2 year anniversary of when my youngest sister took her own life...i still live with the regret. i've learned to move on, but through sadness.

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Re: 2 years...2 very long years
« Reply #1 on: September 07, 2011, 08:18:23 AM »

it's been awhile since ive been here. about a week ago marked the 2 year anniversary of when my youngest sister took her own life...i still live with the regret. i've learned to move on, but through sadness.

It sure has been and really great to hear from you! Thanks for the update. Their anniversary dates can sure hit us hard.
I could relate to you when you first came to webhealing, losing your Mom, Dad and your sister and so tragically. I've buried most of my family so I do understand.

We all try to cope with the regrets, guilt and it prevents us from moving forward with any hope until we can. I would like to start a series on guilt as it is something we all struggle with and I hope you'll stop by and contribute. I've always admired your openness and I believe you have a lot to offer and could help others, especially since you're now finding your way.

So glad to hear you're moving forward. I think the sadness is always with us.

Take care!

Hugs & Love,
Terry

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Re: 2 years...2 very long years
« Reply #2 on: September 07, 2011, 11:38:54 AM »
Hi Fireballkid ~ good to see you post.

Sending you love and light. 
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Re: 2 years...2 very long years
« Reply #3 on: September 13, 2011, 06:44:57 AM »
thanks, appreciate the warm welcome back.

have you seen the documentary "the bridge"? Was a very interesting movie.

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« Reply #4 on: September 13, 2011, 02:24:46 PM »

thanks, appreciate the warm welcome back.

have you seen the documentary "the bridge"? Was a very interesting movie.

Your Welcome! :)

No, I haven't. Don't really watch a lot of TV/movies. What was it about?

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« Reply #5 on: September 13, 2011, 02:27:29 PM »
it's a very interesting, informative yet graphic documentary on suicide - 1,000s of people every year travel to the Golden Gate bridge to end their lives. highly recommend.

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« Reply #6 on: September 13, 2011, 06:19:21 PM »

Ok! No, I wasn't aware of that. Where are you now regarding your struggles with your sister's death? It's been quite awhile since you shared.

If you're feeling up to it.

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« Reply #7 on: September 13, 2011, 08:41:02 PM »
it's been tough, really tough. at times i felt like pulling the trigger but i kept reinforcing it to myself that there's some sort of purpose for me. sometimes im happy, sometimes im extremely depressed. but i guess what matters is that im here and im now.

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« Reply #8 on: September 13, 2011, 09:12:28 PM »

Sounds really hopeful. Good for you! One step forward, two back seems to be the norm, if there 'is' such a thing when grieving. You've been through a lot.

You 'are' what matters!

Sending a big hug (((((((((theFireballKid))))))))

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« Reply #9 on: September 14, 2011, 09:31:05 AM »
Keep posting, we love to here from you. 

Glad you're finding a little peace.
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