Maureen

[jasonkl]

(((Arthur))

I wish I knew words that could ease your pain. I search my mind, but I can find none. I do not beleive I have had the reallity of the coming holiday hit me yet. No decortations up right now and I have managed not to have to spend to much time in any store. No tv, no radio, no holiday ads. My kids are acting like fools so their drama is keeping my mind busy. My mind know it coming, my heart is avoiding it.

Hoping tomarrow will be a better day
Jason

[gaberax]

(((Arthur)))

I am not doing any decorations this year, despite everyone's protests.  Just too hard.

[DaveB]

I've had a real tough time the last few days too. Maybe because of the one year anniversary of Judy's passing, maybe because of the holidays coming up. I spent most of yesterday at my desk trying not to break down. Haven't done that in a while. No Christmas decorations this year at my place. My son and I did put some up last year, because it was so soon after Judy's passing, we needed to pretend like she was still there. This year I just have no spirit. My son hasn't told me what he wants to do yet, if he wants to put some up I suppose we will, but my heart isn't in it.

[arthur]

I had a dr appointment today with my cardiac specialist(I have a history of heart trouble.)
He knew Maureen very well.. he wondered where she was..I had to explain to him what happened.  In an instant I was weeping...I thought I had more control than this..I was certainly not upset b4 the appointment. After hearing my explanation..he said he thought he knew more precisely what caused Maureen's heart attack. He said most of the wheelchair patients he has who have had heart attacks had blood clots traveling from their leg to their heart, although in Maureen's case that knowledge wouldn't have helped her at all due to the duration of time between the initial heart attack and the time I found her. Needless to say, the pain that the doctors information bought up makes me too aware of how much I still need and miss Maureen.  After the appointment the doctor had one of his nurses who had experience in grief come in and talk to me about my grief..it was a very kind gesture that was totally unexpected.  The nurse's words sure helped. But God I miss my wife so much. I need her so much still. Thanks for hearing my words. arthur

[jasonkl]

Arthur

I'm sorry for your pain today. It seems these moments keep coming up when we least expect them.

Praying for the day that when someone asks about your wife, it  will bring a smile to your face, and warmth in your heart.

Jason

[browneyedgirl]

(((((((((((arthur)))))))))))

Oh my friend, it seems like the hits just keep on coming for you.  I am so sorry.

Thinking of you and holding you in my heart. 

lots of love.

[angie]

     (((((((((((((((( ARTHUR ))))))))))))))))))

   I wish I could offer words to comfort you or give you good advice or even wise words of wisdom but i cant(kind of makes me feel useless cos i cant reach out and help others the way evryone on here helps me).Please know Im holding you close to my heart.
          THINKING OF YOU

            love Angie xxxx

[arthur]

Thanks Jason,Pam,Angie for the kind words. They really help me alot..your words allow me to know that I am not so alone as it seems sometimes to me. Again, Thanks! -arthur

[sonya]

((((((((((((((((((Arthur))))))))))))))))

I hear how much you love and miss her in these posts. I wish i could be there to support you, your doctor and nurse sound like amazing people and although it sounds tremendously hard to have had to explain what happened, it gave you the opportunity to get advice from the nurse.

Take care,

hugs

Son

[Terry]

Hi guys,

Feel free to start a NEW TOPIC as when the post counts reach this high, there is always the concern that certain topics/members needs can get overlooked and the reason we're going to retire this thread. All posts deserve individual attention in order for everyone to be receiving support.

See my original post regarding this concern: http://webhealing.com/forums/index.php/topic,7061.0.html

Thanks,
Terry

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