Hi Pam,
Tomorrow is Rich's birthday and I'm so sad. My mother is coming over tomorrow and we will be together. I can't believe I won't be talking to him on his birthday.
I don't know if anyone can relate to this, but I feel like such a LOSER sometimes. I know it's not rational, that it just happens to people - but I feel like it just figures it would happen to my family. As if I'm cursed or something. I know it sounds like self-pity, but it's not really that. It's more like self-loathing. It's not all the time, I try to be grateful for the good things in my life. But sometimes this feeling creeps up on me and I feel very very dark.
The only way I know to get through tomorrow is to try to help my mother. It's the only way I feel any better.
take care everyone,
Missy