Hello everyone. I am new here. You can read about me in introductions. I lost father, mother and husband all inside of a 14 month time frame.
I was wondering if there is any one out there that worries when a new year starts?
I get anxious about a new year, wondering, what will this one bring. I used to look forward to new years, but now each season seems to bring it's own "triggers", it's own set of memories. I lost Doug in March. That is when I go into that place, you know that place where time stands still and you re-live it. It will be 5 years this spring. And I have yet to see one without many tears. It is tough.
I have the winter blues so bad it is hard not to embrace the coming spring season, I will be sooooooo glad to see winter go. I hate winter, I need some sunshine!
ManyTears
I lost my husband many years ago, when my son was a baby. Then in 2009, I lost my son.
I do find that winter is especially hard, because I got a lot of comfort from walking and hiking and exhausting myself with outdoor activity, and right now, I can't do that.
I also find that the "new year" gives me a jolt - my son died in summer 2009, so when we hit 2010, I could only think "my first year without Vince," and now, as 2011, I think, "another year without Vince - how many must I endure? How many like this will there be, how will they stack up?"
My sense of the passage of time has definitely changed, as it feels more like my son died a month ago, than a year and a half ago.