Hi Renee,
I understand how hearing your Dad's voice would have thrown you into a tailspin. I experienced the same. It hurts and I think always will. How could it not? He was your Daddy.
I don't think we ever 'get-over' the loss of someone we deeply loved. I do, however believe we learn to live with the pain and to remember the good times more than the sadness and the pain from losing them. The sadness from missing them is forever.
I am also twice a survivor of suicide and the questions, for me seem to always be there, although I've found peace in their memories today.
Welcome back!
((((((((((((((Renee)))))))))))
My Love,
Terry