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Annie1973

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Dear Dan, love, Mom
« on: November 30, 2010, 07:34:57 PM »
Dear Dan,

I'm really trying to love Christmas again. If you were here, I'd be able to ask you what you want and I'm sure you'd be wanting to know what to get me. I want to be with you for Christmas, to be with you and Tanis and baby Daniel and Bree, all of us together, smiling and telling stories and laughing, mostly laughing. Daniel is so happy with his mama, but the rest of us just miss you and miss you more. Our lives are just harder without you, without your humor and perspective. Every day I wonder how I made it another day without you.

Every year I do something to volunteer through the Christmas season, I hope you're happy with what I do, it's all in your memory because I know if you were here you'd be doing something to help someone. I put a bike helmet in the Toys for Tots box, I thought you'd like that. Tanis wants a makeup case with every color in the rainbow. I'm getting Daniel a kitchen since he loves to cook with his mama, and you loved to cook. Don't worry, it isn't a girlie one, it looks kind of industrial, like a chefs kitchen.

I can't be happy anymore Dan, I don't know what to do. Mamas and daddys with children who are dead don't have happy Christmases, we try, but we smile and burst into tears in the same second. People think there's something wrong with us and I guess there is. I'll never get used to living without you. When you died, my joy died. I love you forever, and I'll miss you forever.

Thanks for watching over us,
Mom
« Last Edit: December 01, 2010, 12:52:19 PM by Annie1973 »
Much love,
Annie (Dans mom)

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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #1 on: December 01, 2010, 10:11:46 AM »
Beautiful Annie

((((Annie)))))
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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #2 on: December 01, 2010, 10:17:53 AM »
I share your feelings so much.  That is what I would of written to Donny.  I give you credit for all the good things you are doing in Dan's memory.  Try to have a Peaceful Christmas.

Don
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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #3 on: December 01, 2010, 07:20:35 PM »
My thoughts exacly. thanks for sharing. This could have been me speaking, It is everything I feel. hugs  LaVonne 

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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #4 on: December 03, 2010, 03:57:25 AM »
U hit the nail on the head for me. thank u.
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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #5 on: December 04, 2010, 10:31:38 AM »
Thanks for posting this, Annie.

I write Vince all the time.  It helps me feel better.

Am doing my best to enjoy the holidays, and I send my best wishes and love to you, to find whatever joy is available amidst the sadness.  Your Dan sounds like he was very, very special.
I love thee to the level of every day's Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. -- Emily Dickinson

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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #6 on: December 05, 2010, 08:25:30 PM »
Oh, my dear, sweet Annie,

I mirror what everyone else says about your words. It could have been me talking.

I have to pretend to have fun because of my living son.

It does hurt so bad, I know. Hugs to you, Annie.

{{{{{{{{Annie}}}}}}}}

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Re: Dear Dan, love, Mom
« Reply #7 on: December 06, 2010, 05:01:47 PM »
Hugs and love to you, sweet Annie with thoughts of Dan, always.

((((((((((((Annie)))))))))))

Love,
Terry