Dear Helene--- Thank you for your wishes, I appreciate them. My brother too had emotional problems and issues, which landed him ten+ years in/out of jail/prison, for stupid things, nothing ever violent, but stupid, like check forgery, stealing from family, that kind of thing. David would never have hurt a fly, and didn't intentionally hurt his family. He was a hard worker, loved the outdoors, never lazy when it came to working. He laughed a lot, but some of it was to cover up pain, you know? He also felt he had to lie to his family about his life, and how good it was, even if it wasn't. He was a pathological liar and believed the lies he told, but no matter what, his family loved him and worried about him. I'm crying as I write this, as I cry every time I think of him too much, or talk about him. But I know I need to do it and face it, or I'll never get through it.
I feel really bad that you lost your sister through such circumstances, how hard it must be to deal with the loss. You could not save her, just like I could not save David, mostly from himself, his own worst enemy. I'm glad you have someone to listen to here, as I am to be able to "talk" and to listen also. It helps so much.... Love, deebee