Dear Beth!
I´m sorry for your loss,too!I´m from the board of the Spouse and Partner Loss,but as you´ve read here I also lost my father and was with him when he died in the hospital.After reading your post I need to reply,because as well as Terry said,there must be someone like you to understand you well.I never wrote about it here,but now it´s the right time to talk to.I was like my father and my mother made his life miserable,too.He has been so unhappy with her and died long ago because of the gullet´s cancer after 6 months of his illness.Their unfortunate marriage was the reason I had always suffered from.After my father died,my mother also found another man as a contrast of my father,that has also been about year and in consequence of that my mother has changed very much to deprive me of all the things for giving it to someone else.I was 26 y.o. and had to start again all alone.She even didn´t let me know about funerals of my grandparents and other important things.Then happened the worst thing in my life as my beloved man Jan suddenly died 3 years ago.My heart is crying for him all the time.It will never stop until I meet my beloved Jan again...He is the love of my life,the greatest,only one and irreplaceable for the rest of my life...my everlasting love...my most beautiful being...my best...my everything...forever...I must be strong because of him and it will bring me to the end my beloved Jan will be waiting for...waiting for me...for me in heaven forever.
One day we´ll be with our loved ones again.
Hugs,
Janka