Hi Terry. Matt & Morgan took the train out from Brooklyn and joined Craig, myself, Josh & his gf Jill around 11'ish. We went to the cemetary, then the kids left and Craig & I stayed a while longer. The kids bought and set up a deli style lunch and waited for us to get home and we ate together. Both M & M were starting new jobs the next day so around 5 they left for home. Craig & I visited my Mom in the nursing home. I didn't remind her of the date for why hurt her even more. It's very difficult b/c of her stroke she has TBI and I can't be certain how much is just word retrieval issues and how much is due to the traumatic brain injury. All I know is that she is living one of her greatest nightmares and I wish that my Dad, my brother & Adam would come for her and let her rejoin her men-I believe that she would be much happier than in her current state.
Tonight is the 1st night of RH and I'm busy cooking-going to a bereaved friends house. G-d bless her, she lost her only child and she keeps on going. Considering I was ready to check out with a husband and 3 other children I stand in awe of her.
My men folk all have to work late and then they are going over to a funeral home because Craig's BIL brother (age 54) passed suddenly .. on all days ... Sept. 6th. I just can't attend. I was at my therapist yesterday and at my psychiatrist today. I had taken a break over the summer and all of the things coming up (Adam's anniversary, Kaiti's discharge etc.) has made me rely to much on Xanax. So now I am adding a 3rd medication to my regime to hopefully calm the system. I'm believe that Craig's sister and her husband (& his family) will understand. Craig, Matt & Josh will represent us. If Craig comes home and tells me that it is imperative that I go, I will go tomorrow and to the funeral on Fri.
Thanks for always checking in on me my friend.
XO