Ron,
I am so very sorry for your loss. I know it hurts and that it hurts bad. Believe me, I know. You just have to take one breath, one step, and one day at a time.
If you know someone who has experienced the same kind of loss that you have then talk with them. That has been one of the things that has helped me the most. And come here and talk as much as you need. We all here understand.
Gail