An update on Dad: He does not and probably will not know who I am in the future. That magical and at times, mythical 'time period' has passed where the thick brush he had been wandering in is no longer and he has emerged into an imaginary clearing where others 'do' exist but their names are not familiar. He looks at me with fear and anxiety, though he 'senses' something familiar and my touch and kisses are calming to him at certain times.
He requires 24/7 care and is back home with a full staff of nurses qualified in AD. I remain grateful that he is still here with me, for me to touch, to hug, to kiss...to call Daddy.
Today, July 20th marks 34 years that my Mother has been gone. She is all he has been talking about, though it's difficult to understand the words he tries so hard for us to hear. Before his stroke, he hadn't mentioned my Mother in years.
The workings of the human mind is so complex and just amazing. AD is such a devastating disease.
These messages mean so much to me...(Big Sigh and Big Smile) and you all mean so much to me. Thank You!
To sign on and read these has brought me out of an awful place, such a lonely place and I hear so often that others say that they have 'nothing to offer in the way of comfort.' Don't ever underestimate the power that your words have. Even sending a HUG is so uplifting. Again, I appreciate you all!
Getting older and getting sick is something we all know is inevitable. It's the pain we can never prepare for. It's the price we pay for love. And, it's such a steep price. But, given the choice to 'not' love to escape this pain, I believe we would all make the choice to continue to love, deeply and unconditionally.
If time allowed it, I would respond to every message but because it doesn't right now, today, I just want to say...Thanks to sweet Tanis and a big hug from me, please Annie.
Mansour, you're so open and loving and caring and 'my' hope for you is that you will find love again, with someone who will appreciate what you have to offer, and it's a great deal. Thank you. It really is all about love.
I've missed you, Betty and always think of you and your precious Sara.
((((((((((((Sandy, Don, Pam, Wendy, Annie & Tanis, Betty, Virgie, Brenda, Lauren, Mansour))))))))))))
I love you guys!
Terry